The Truth And The Half Truth
Met Michelle at the lockers.
Talked about something. Leaving her with answers should she choose to accept them. Mark should know la. Counting on you to shh kay? Thanks man lol. Eh the strings thing was brilliant btw!
And I skipped my Further Math lesson telling my teacher that my left leg is bleeding. It is anyway. But I could probably survive a war, outrun wild rabid animals, Tai Yi Loongs(big ear holes), angry Kin Keongs and survive a zombie outbreak class 4.(Max Brooks!)
So I'm here in the library. Blogging while waiting for the burning sensation to subside.
But yeah about the 2 things up there.
I don't know man recently I've lost the ability to seem honest. I find that somehow when I'm lying I seem more honest.
The truth I speak nowadays just seems so much like a lie. And the half truths I speak although not really lies(I know it's just as bad but I try not to lie 100%) people tend to believe them.
This causes a lot of frustration for me. I mean like "honestly, this ......."
Doesn't get people's confidence.
Aih "Justice has to be seen as it is done." It is seen. But why is it so hard to believe me then?
And yet seemingly a whole bunch of people out there still put their trust in my actions not my words. But yet some of my friends some of the close one's and even one of those thats supposed to really really really know...Doesn't trust me. And yet more people and more people are learning about my past everyday. If those people can't trust me will the fella trust my history? Well at least those "brothers" still trust me to do the honest thing no matter how much I joke around. Zzzz.
Potong my steam.
Aik "Trust has to be earned." "A given trust not an earned one, Is a sorely misplaced one."
So I'm going to have to earn it. Okay. But how do I earn it?
Maybe a short declaration? Having cleaner actions? Smoother less disjointed movements? Making things clear? Being less ambiguous?
"When in doubt, tell the truth."
And I do tell the truth but it just seems so difficult to buy. Bleh. And it seemed like such a good idea to mask my intentions in "smoke and mirrors". Tactical error? Zzzzz.
But seriously there are things you can't lie about. I can't lie. I'm not allowed to lie. Unless absolutely necessary and if doesn't affect the outcome. If not how am I supposed to guide and teach those that seek me looking for help? Only by honesty and believing in my own truth, can I lead them right.
Talked about something. Leaving her with answers should she choose to accept them. Mark should know la. Counting on you to shh kay? Thanks man lol. Eh the strings thing was brilliant btw!
And I skipped my Further Math lesson telling my teacher that my left leg is bleeding. It is anyway. But I could probably survive a war, outrun wild rabid animals, Tai Yi Loongs(big ear holes), angry Kin Keongs and survive a zombie outbreak class 4.(Max Brooks!)
So I'm here in the library. Blogging while waiting for the burning sensation to subside.
But yeah about the 2 things up there.
I don't know man recently I've lost the ability to seem honest. I find that somehow when I'm lying I seem more honest.
The truth I speak nowadays just seems so much like a lie. And the half truths I speak although not really lies(I know it's just as bad but I try not to lie 100%) people tend to believe them.
This causes a lot of frustration for me. I mean like "honestly, this ......."
Doesn't get people's confidence.
Aih "Justice has to be seen as it is done." It is seen. But why is it so hard to believe me then?
And yet seemingly a whole bunch of people out there still put their trust in my actions not my words. But yet some of my friends some of the close one's and even one of those thats supposed to really really really know...Doesn't trust me. And yet more people and more people are learning about my past everyday. If those people can't trust me will the fella trust my history? Well at least those "brothers" still trust me to do the honest thing no matter how much I joke around. Zzzz.
Potong my steam.
Aik "Trust has to be earned." "A given trust not an earned one, Is a sorely misplaced one."
So I'm going to have to earn it. Okay. But how do I earn it?
Maybe a short declaration? Having cleaner actions? Smoother less disjointed movements? Making things clear? Being less ambiguous?
"When in doubt, tell the truth."
And I do tell the truth but it just seems so difficult to buy. Bleh. And it seemed like such a good idea to mask my intentions in "smoke and mirrors". Tactical error? Zzzzz.
But seriously there are things you can't lie about. I can't lie. I'm not allowed to lie. Unless absolutely necessary and if doesn't affect the outcome. If not how am I supposed to guide and teach those that seek me looking for help? Only by honesty and believing in my own truth, can I lead them right.
