Depression or Happy
Depression or Happy.......Depression or Happy.....Depression or Happy....Depression or Happy.........Depression or Happy????!!!!
Ugh that ugly event still rears it's ugly ugly head in an ugly ugly way. Unsightly. Nak shoot the thingy.
But you can't shoot things in the past. Or bite it. Or sock it to the face the conventional way.
Well you see right that event can interpreted both positively or negatively.
If it's positive it's nice and all but the deed was done badly.
But if it's negative. It can be the worst form of negativity like you know -275? Uhh negative infinity that kinda thing.
It would be as bad as it FREAKING gets. [pants]
[deep breath] But no...I don't know. For all I know, for all I know about predicting outcomes, for all the dreams I have, for every bit of brainpower thats devoted to understanding,predicting & reaching into other people's heads. For once I'm lost very lost. No clues too. And it seems no one can tell me anything definitive.
I was ok yesterday only because I decided to look at things positively.
But as a guy who always plans for the worst I've decided to get realistic. Can't always live in a dream can we. Gotta look at the sky and some days we say to ourselves it's gonna rain and I can't use the com coz of lightning and thunder.
Aih just gonna focus on exams first anyway. Very close to getting 4 A's for AS already. No matter how much I say I'm a stupid lazy shit. I have to admit really I'm a lazy shit whos actually quite smart who did quite above average again.(transcript arrived today) So a lot of hope is being placed on me right now. With bated breath and staring eyes they wanna see the 4A's come out of me.
Ah Sarah is telling me(constantly a bit wayyy to much anyway) to go study. So I guess I should take her advice and bury myself in books, papers, inks and notes till this exam is over.
Then I'll get outa the muck and try to figure things out again.
Can't help feeling slightly muted though just gotta rise up and roar and chew the books and not let it get to me!
Ugh that ugly event still rears it's ugly ugly head in an ugly ugly way. Unsightly. Nak shoot the thingy.
But you can't shoot things in the past. Or bite it. Or sock it to the face the conventional way.
Well you see right that event can interpreted both positively or negatively.
If it's positive it's nice and all but the deed was done badly.
But if it's negative. It can be the worst form of negativity like you know -275? Uhh negative infinity that kinda thing.
It would be as bad as it FREAKING gets. [pants]
[deep breath] But no...I don't know. For all I know, for all I know about predicting outcomes, for all the dreams I have, for every bit of brainpower thats devoted to understanding,predicting & reaching into other people's heads. For once I'm lost very lost. No clues too. And it seems no one can tell me anything definitive.
I was ok yesterday only because I decided to look at things positively.
But as a guy who always plans for the worst I've decided to get realistic. Can't always live in a dream can we. Gotta look at the sky and some days we say to ourselves it's gonna rain and I can't use the com coz of lightning and thunder.
Aih just gonna focus on exams first anyway. Very close to getting 4 A's for AS already. No matter how much I say I'm a stupid lazy shit. I have to admit really I'm a lazy shit whos actually quite smart who did quite above average again.(transcript arrived today) So a lot of hope is being placed on me right now. With bated breath and staring eyes they wanna see the 4A's come out of me.
Ah Sarah is telling me(constantly a bit wayyy to much anyway) to go study. So I guess I should take her advice and bury myself in books, papers, inks and notes till this exam is over.
Then I'll get outa the muck and try to figure things out again.
Can't help feeling slightly muted though just gotta rise up and roar and chew the books and not let it get to me!
