I Think It's Better For You To Take Those Back
Yesterday arh when we went to someone's house for our Black & Red huddle session Jason Khong had to charge his phone coz his battery kong. Lol! Edwin's joke.
And Jason asked all those who were single to raise their hands. Only Aiden/Ayden didn't raise his hand. Immediately all the campus city people pointed their hands at me and said "Woi Kington don't lie tell the truth!" "REPENT!"
The Subang huddle group was like "Oh he got arh?" Benji replied "Oh he got a lot of girlfriends and one "BEST" friend."
Yeah Benji the Lord said we live in abundance.
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"It's been awhile hasn't it?"
"Yes it has."
"It's been so long since you visited me. But all things aside. I want to know how the "redesigning" went."
"Well things are ambigious. I think I stand in a better position now than ever. But I still don't think it's good enough."
"Elaborate."
"Well it's like things got better. We talk more but..."
"But?"
"I can't shake the feeling that I'm just giving myself hope when there really isn't any."
"Go on."
"It's like we're closer. We talk more and all but it's like someone else still has her heart."
"As in how?"
"I mean like she wouldn't have said that at all if it was me that she was really thinking of. Thats just like some kinda "No" hint."
"I'm sorry for you."
"And sometimes the way she says goodbye is just so cold."
"Take it easy there man. It's not the end of the pathway yet."
"I know...I just have to pick things up and keep going. Keep at it."
"Thats the spirit."
"And if I fail. I'll fall and be broken again. But at least I'll be remade again."
"Yes you shouldn't worry about failing. If it happens it happens but it's not the end of the world."
"I guess you're right but I want to succeed in this more than ever. She's just so flawless."
"Well at least things don't look so bleak now right? It looks like you've got a chance at least."
"But I'm still worried..."
"Remember, Worry makes the man fretfull and a fretfull man does not plan well. The fretfull man never find success, because his eyes are gouged out by his worries."
"You're right. I'll just have to give it my best and if I fail. I'll try to fail soaring in the sky being the best I can be."
"Thats the spirit. Take up the arms and all that is yours wear your finery, your armor, reveal your symbols, guard yourself against your enemies and revere and love your God. That should be the way. Even if you burn out. Make sure you burn out bright."
"Thank you for the advice. And it's real nice to see you again."
"You're welcome. And by the way since you're begining to stand fully again. You can go down and retrieve your stuff."
"You mean that?"
"Yes, your right and your left. I think it's better for you to take those back."
[I walk down the long corridors familiar to me from so long ago. So many memories here. The air is stale as I approach where I need to go. When I reach the double doors keeping my stuff safe, I take a deep breath. It's been so long since I've used those 2 things. My right and my left. I open the doors and I see in the corner under the display light right where I left it so long ago.]
[I look around the room. So long it has been since I've been here. I approach the case my heart pounding in my ears. My palms sweaty. The anticipation to use them again has gotten to me. My mouth is dry. My breathing audible.]
[I open the casing. I look at them no different from the very day I left them. Shiny from polish. Yet seeing them there not moving, seperated seems so alien even though I haven't seen them in so long.]
[I take them out and lay my hands on them.]
"Welcome back my left and right hands I need you again to do my work."
[And the hiss to life moving and slowly they meld into my hands and I feel the skills and knowledge I burnt or painfully removed come roaring and pounding back into me.]
"1 month and I hope I succeed."
And Jason asked all those who were single to raise their hands. Only Aiden/Ayden didn't raise his hand. Immediately all the campus city people pointed their hands at me and said "Woi Kington don't lie tell the truth!" "REPENT!"
The Subang huddle group was like "Oh he got arh?" Benji replied "Oh he got a lot of girlfriends and one "BEST" friend."
Yeah Benji the Lord said we live in abundance.
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"It's been awhile hasn't it?"
"Yes it has."
"It's been so long since you visited me. But all things aside. I want to know how the "redesigning" went."
"Well things are ambigious. I think I stand in a better position now than ever. But I still don't think it's good enough."
"Elaborate."
"Well it's like things got better. We talk more but..."
"But?"
"I can't shake the feeling that I'm just giving myself hope when there really isn't any."
"Go on."
"It's like we're closer. We talk more and all but it's like someone else still has her heart."
"As in how?"
"I mean like she wouldn't have said that at all if it was me that she was really thinking of. Thats just like some kinda "No" hint."
"I'm sorry for you."
"And sometimes the way she says goodbye is just so cold."
"Take it easy there man. It's not the end of the pathway yet."
"I know...I just have to pick things up and keep going. Keep at it."
"Thats the spirit."
"And if I fail. I'll fall and be broken again. But at least I'll be remade again."
"Yes you shouldn't worry about failing. If it happens it happens but it's not the end of the world."
"I guess you're right but I want to succeed in this more than ever. She's just so flawless."
"Well at least things don't look so bleak now right? It looks like you've got a chance at least."
"But I'm still worried..."
"Remember, Worry makes the man fretfull and a fretfull man does not plan well. The fretfull man never find success, because his eyes are gouged out by his worries."
"You're right. I'll just have to give it my best and if I fail. I'll try to fail soaring in the sky being the best I can be."
"Thats the spirit. Take up the arms and all that is yours wear your finery, your armor, reveal your symbols, guard yourself against your enemies and revere and love your God. That should be the way. Even if you burn out. Make sure you burn out bright."
"Thank you for the advice. And it's real nice to see you again."
"You're welcome. And by the way since you're begining to stand fully again. You can go down and retrieve your stuff."
"You mean that?"
"Yes, your right and your left. I think it's better for you to take those back."
[I walk down the long corridors familiar to me from so long ago. So many memories here. The air is stale as I approach where I need to go. When I reach the double doors keeping my stuff safe, I take a deep breath. It's been so long since I've used those 2 things. My right and my left. I open the doors and I see in the corner under the display light right where I left it so long ago.]
[I look around the room. So long it has been since I've been here. I approach the case my heart pounding in my ears. My palms sweaty. The anticipation to use them again has gotten to me. My mouth is dry. My breathing audible.]
[I open the casing. I look at them no different from the very day I left them. Shiny from polish. Yet seeing them there not moving, seperated seems so alien even though I haven't seen them in so long.]
[I take them out and lay my hands on them.]
"Welcome back my left and right hands I need you again to do my work."
[And the hiss to life moving and slowly they meld into my hands and I feel the skills and knowledge I burnt or painfully removed come roaring and pounding back into me.]
"1 month and I hope I succeed."
